I know your kind
the sort of person you are
always craving for the best
longing for the desires of your heart.
You think everyone has the same heart as you
and you trust them untill the day
when you feel completely exhausted and fucked up
by their presence and their way.
Yet again, you tend to forget all about it
what happened was not your fault for sure
but longing for the things that destroy you in the end
is like slowly drowning your love into the pour.
You have always been like this,
craving, longing and desiring
never settling for average or good enough
surely deserving best of everything.
You are the sort of person
that notices how tight people hug
wishing for those last 2 minutes
of complete silence and passionate love.
You know that pain of love
lasts a lifetime and forever
and still desire for the pleasures
which lasts for only a moment and never.
You are one of a kind
who let yourself hurt until it hurts no more
never letting yourself believe to be loved truly
always allowing yourself to be cursed more and more.
You isolate yourself from the world around
while you go through hard shit
taking your own space and time
you eventually process your feelings and quit.
It breaks your heart
when others misunderstand you
and then you tend to always find silence and peace
with the books who love the strange in you.
You hate the pointless forced convos
no replies and cancelled plans
expecting the biggest apology to yourself
but all in vain.
You long for the occasional I love you(s) and i miss you(s)
from someone who listens and makes you laugh
but never wanting anyone to fix you
not even when there’s a storm brewing inside your heart.
You want to be alone in your space
but not at all lonely
deserving more than just being an option
demanding to be held more closely.
Thank you for reading!!!
Live. Laugh. Love.